Vulnerable

"People find it frightening to just spend time with people who are in great pain.

      You see, a person who is in great anguish is crying out. Even if they are totally silent like you are, way down deep I can hear you crying out.

     And that cry, the cry of an anguished person, has the power to awaken the cry, the wound, the brokenness that exists inside every person.

    Every person, no matter how high up the social ladder they have climbed or no matter how valued their role is in our society, every person has a cry, a wound, a brokenness down deep inside of them.

    Thus, to be with a person who is anguished is to risk experiencing the cry that is way down deep inside each of us.”

 Anonymous.

I found reading this statement really interesting and it really resonated in my heart. I came across it when I was doing an assignment on mental health and the stigma associated with it and how people react to mental illness. Why are we so scared of being vulnerable with people, being real and going deeper than surface level? I know why, FEAR. Fear of rejection, fear of disappointment, fear of loneliness, fear or saying or doing the wrong thing…. The list goes on.

 It got me thinking about what the things are in my life that make me feel vulnerable, the things that I see as inadequacies. I think it’s important that we dig down deeper to find out what is going on inside ourselves, as it is so easy to push down and ignore.

Maybe like I have ask yourself what the things are that you are pushing down and not wanting to face? We all have them. Be secure in knowing we all have inner pain, shame and things we don’t always want to face. Doesn’t mean we shouldn’t though!

 

Just something that I am thinking and working through myself so thought I would share!

 

 

Xx Katie

My heart

I don't usually write poems these days but just wrote this little one a few months ago.

 

May love and light be so a part of me that it flows with no restraint

May grace be my default and selfish thoughts absent.

Let judgement never cross my mind, to weigh others down by sin.

Let bitterness fall, anger flee and shame not box me in.

Cause hope was found when I was lost and truth unbound my heart.

No longer blind now I can see the beauty of the fathers love.

Kate xx

 

 

 

Uplifting

I have no classes today so I am pottering around at home studying and getting things done… which led to me scrolling through the internet, I came across the Website with lots of motivational quotes, (which I love) and loved some of them so much that I thought I would share them on here. Maybe some of them will put a smile on your face and brighten your day : )

 "People were created to be loved. Things were created to be used. The reason the world is in chaos, is because things are being loved, and people are being used."

"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I’ve ended up where I needed to be."

 "I think everyone should be told they’re beautiful until they believe it" – Unknown

 

"There are two ways to live your life.

One is as though nothing is a miracle.

The other is as though everything is a miracle" - Albert Einstein

 "It’s impossible” said pride. 

“It’s risky” said experience. 

“It’s pointless” said reason.

 “Give it a try” whispered the heart.

 

"Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections."

 

 "Life isn’t a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, latte in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming ‘Woohoo WHAT A RIDE’!"

  

"Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are" – John Wooden.

 

I hope this brightened your day, if you have any favorite quotes comment and let me know what they are!

Head to this link if you want more! http://www.yourlifeyourway.net/2011/09/06/75-best-kickass-inspirational-quotes-on-life-love-happiness-change-growth/

Lovely & Loveable

WARNING: if you are not the kind who likes cheesy girly warm fuzies exit now….

"Being tender and open is beautiful.

As a woman, I feel continually shhh’ed.

Too sensitive. Too mushy. Too wishy washy. Blah blah.

Don’t let someone steal your tenderness.

Don’t allow the coldness and fear of others to tarnish your perfectly vulnerable beating heart.

Nothing is more powerful than allowing yourself to truly be affected by things.

Whether it’s a song, a stranger, a mountain, a rain drop, a tea kettle, an article, a sentence, a footstep, feel it all – look around you.

All of this is for you.

Take it and have gratitude.

Give it and feel love."

~Zooey Deschanel~

I saw this quote on a friend’s Facebook page a few months ago. I copied it onto a note that sits on my desktop. Every day it to reminds me every that its ok to be me, to feel things the way that I feel them and to embrace those feelings instead of pushing them away and trying to be staunch. My mushy cheesiness isn’t always so bad :) Whoo Girl Power

 I also love this song, it makes me happy inside, maybe it will work for you too :)

Why I Love Christchurch

Christchurch has had a rough 18+ months since we had our first earthquake in September 2010. I however don't want to talk about the bad stuff that has happened but want to focus on the reasons why I love this city so much.

This is home, I love being here, I am so proud to live in Christchurch and I don't plan on going anywhere (for now anyway).

There are many reasons why I love the city that I live in, here is one

Simple and sweet, location is key. We have the beach the countryside and the city all close together. I am so thankful that only a 20 minute drive from my home in the city can take me to this beautiful view.

Where are some of your favorite spots in your home town??

Katie D

Those moments that change you

I am lucky enough to have had several life changing experiences. Those things that make you look at life and the beautiful things that make it up, with new eyes of appreciation.

I watched this video this afternoon for the first time in a while. It is a video of a trek into the Grand Canyon that I was privileged enough to be a part of when I was 18.
We made history by taking the first two people unable to walk down to the Havasu falls in the Grand Canyon, using a specially designed Killie Kart.

Are there moments in your life that have changed you? If there is make sure you hold onto them and never let yourself forget the way that they moved, and helped shape you into the person that you are today :)

Katie D

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My Mantra

It has been a dream of mine for a long time to be a nurse. From a young age, after I decided a farmer or vet wasn’t for me I knew I wanted a job that helped people. Last year I started my 3 year degree.

I had a two year break after high school and have loved being back studying. I really enjoy what I am learning. I always loved school and always worked hard, but while loving it struggled with the academic side. Nothing has changed and I still have to push myself to pass,

I realise though, if it wasn't as hard and I didn’t have to study and dedicate as much of myself to what I’m doing, then I might no appreciate it as much as I do. So I am grateful for that.

 This is the quote I try to remind myself of whenever I am feeling like everything with study is overwhelming me. Maybe it will help you where you are right now in life too.

Katie D

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Why I hate religon, but love Jesus (Video)

I try to avoid putting too many things like this on my blog. There reason why is not because I ashamed of the fact the I am a Christian. I would openly  and proudly tell anyone that I am. However the thing for me is that I want my friends and the people around me to see it and not just hear it, to know that I have strong morals and things that I stand for and believe in… without having to stick it down their throats every 5 minutes.

But… I just love this video so much and I can’t stop watching it. So I thought I would share it on here. A lot of people will have already seen it but it is worth a watch. This will hopefully help some people understand that for me and for a lot of my friends being a Christian doesn’t mean judging people, trying to change and convert them.  Christianity is not about religion; in fact I try my hardest to not become religious. It means loving people just the way that they are and where they are. It is about having Grace and forgiveness for people and wanting to be a positive and encouraging influence in people lives.

Watch and enjoy J

Love, Grace, Forgiveness. We could all use a little bit more of it

Katie D

Moving on & Moving in

Tomorrow is the last day living in my big ole house before I move into a flat with two of my amazing friends. I’m 95% excited and 5% sad.

My walls are bare and my room is half empty. This is the house that I have lived in since I was 7.

It's been home base, comforting and filled with love and awesome memories. I'll miss living here a lot but I’m excited for this next new chapter of my life and to grow and learn more about myself (and my two friends) this year.

So here's to letting go of the old, no matter how good it is, accepting positive change and deciding to fully embrace what is new, exciting and good :)

Smile & Embrace Change :)
Katie D

Procrastination No More

It happened slowly, snuck up on me from nowhere and before I knew it, I became a procrastinator.

I never used to procrastinate I was so onto things and got things done very quickly, then somewhere along the way I lost a bit of energy and motivation.

Instead of loving life’s busyness I started using it as an excuse, so no more! I have decided that this year I will work on my procrastination!

 

Here are my 3 things that I am going to do to hopefully improve!

1) Write Lists

2) Accountability

3) Doing things as soon as they come up

Lists - I love writing lists and the feeling of accomplishment when I tick things off is weirdly awesome.

Accountability - I am more likely to do something if I know someone will give me a hard time if I don’t.

Doing things straight away - The longer I leave something the harder it seems to be to get onto doing it.

Join me on my journey to fight the procrastination and become motivated again! Whoo J

Katie D